Holiday to do list

• Save money to get a tuner
• Try not to starve in the process of saving money
• Watch a movie(i don't care wat)
• Study everyday
• Lit essay(5 june)
• meditate once weekly
• Become a remote viewer( predict exam qn in the process of the previous)

Hmm... lets see if i can manage that.

I went for cca outing today. It was quite fun actually, playing arcade, K-box, pool. I'm now resigned to my fate that i suck at bishi bashi. Also, i learnt that you should find every chance to stuff anybody who hogs the microphone in a janitor's closet. Yes shove him in and then sing at the top of your lungs while he screams inside. "what you heard something? nah it must be someone singing horrendously next door (disapproving, knowing look)"

Please lor! sing so horribly still want to hog the mike. I just want to stuff the mike up his nose lah. Not that i'm being unfeeling to those who are tone deaf, but must also consider the welfare of those listening. people down here dying already, ears corroding. I admit that i don't sing well too, STILL... The voice plus the hogging of the mike made me feel like i'll never listen to music again. At that moment i thought i'd never be happy again. xx's quote apply here " all the flowers within a one mile radius withered and died" and somewhere a dog got knocked by a car. Please people learn from my lesson, you've got to do what you've got to do:)

bushy hairstyle( maigck hair!) 

Look at this!!! Soo cute right?? i got this for my angel a week ago. Not the exact one, but it looked like this. Like some bushy hair, kinda like sendoh(above). So tempted to buy somemore to give people lah. It can live without soil, and absorbs water vapour. I call it "magic plant". Technically it's named ten...tenlandia?? watever, it's still a magick plant.


Magic plant!! bushy hair

Preciousness of life

Today i let myself see a life slip away. It was a turtle. It was raining and somehow it was swept into the canal outside my school. I was at the bustop when i saw it struggle to climb out onto the shallower part of the drain. It made it's way slowly towards what it perceived, as home. Not knowing that no matter how much it walked, it would never get out of that drain. At one point, it stopped and raised it's head, peering at the steep concrete slope to it's left; the path it needed to take to it's freedom. It's almost as if it's thinking. "will i be able to make it up?"

It moved on. Determined to find another way. After all, if one way's not good, there's always another. right?It moved on.

I watched it drag it's heavy shell as it moved along, my heart wrenched. It was going to die one way or another. Sooner or later. The drain is not a place for a turtle. Like fish out of water. Once the rain gets bigger, it would be washed into some sewage pipe. If it survived, it would starve and die a slow painful death. I was tempted to save it.And then transport it to a pond. After all the stairs down the drain was only a short walk away. How difficult could that be, that flight of stairs?

I watched it inch along. The bus came and i boarded it.

Fighting Fears

My first loss of the year is tadah... my tie. It's been missing for weeks and finally i conclude that indeed, it has left me forever... lets have a one minute of silence to reflect on the times i spent with my beloved tie. The times it has been through with me, through thick and thin. Tests and presentations, the dreadful cca's and times of boredom. How it also helped allay my fears by allowing me to twist and tug it when i'm nervous. Now there's no one to be my my side(or shld i say front) every wed. Ahhh...i miss you my tie. come back to me

Anyway, i remembered that i had the fear of losing things last time. i would grow panicky and frantic when i lose even the smallest things such as a ruler or pencil. The worst was when i lost my brother's cap. i broke down. Basically because he told me specifically not to lose it and i did just tt. Then there was my history text, which for weeks i was begging anyone who have seen it return to me, and having it returned to me only 15mins after i bought a new one. Think of the stupidity, frustration and anger i was feeling at tt time. It wasn't abt the money if you are thinking so. Since young i was chided of being the hopeless forgetful one in the family. So everytime i lost something it just confirms that i am wu ke jiu yao (medicine also cannot cure). I hate that feeling.

It seems now that i don't have that fear anymore. I have grown used to accepting loss and taking it as it is. If it's not meant to belong to you, it's just not. i'm not sure this overcoming of fear is a good thing or bad. Only time will tell. I can only hope that i don't lose anymore things.

Fear is a strange thing.It has an amazing hold over us, yet they can be useful and be a liability at the same time. I'm just glad i don't have fears which burden. My advice:If you have one, fight it

Those were the days.....

(survey i did on friendster)

Name: you know who( for the dumb ones, me lah!)
Class/Year: 1/8, 2S2, 3S3, 4S3
Serial :not bothering to remember.
CCA:Girl Guides!!!!! Whoohoo!!! a sea of blue[in class]
what position do you hold in the classroom?
none in sec1,2n 3sec4: vice-chair- how did that happen?

who sits beside you?
sec 1 : michelle t
sec 2: chern chieh
sec 3 : soofrina
sec4: Abby!!
who sits in front of you?
sec 1: bixia
sec 2: Janice
sec 3 and 4:It's all a blur. Changed seats millions of times. changed classrooms too. at one pt farida i think.
who sits to your right?
sec 3 can't remb,
sec4: Aida
who sits behind you?
sec 1: sonia i think or was it sarah?
sec 2: michelle t
sec 3 and 4: someone, claryce
where do you sit?
middle in sec1 n2 .always near the front door in sec4.....
are you the class joker/bimbo/slu.t?
hmmm... that's a very good question. what am i??

honestly do you like your class teE?
still need to ask? Of Course 100% i do. personally thought i was the best class tee in the whole sch
how many people you dislike in clasS?
none. neutral me. i'm being honest,really. the class was really cool...(did i forget anyone?)

your form teacher- love her or hate her?
LOved them both! still missing them. wonder how they're doing....
[out of the classroom]how many dps have you accumulated this year?and what for?
a couple here and there.

which is the stupidest rule?
can't think of any. rules never really bothered me.
honestly do you like the uniform?
god yes!!! i love it!! (banana's of the world unite!)

fave place to hang out?
in sch: changed frm time to time. first it was the computer rooms then cyber cafe then it was along the corridor of the container block.(classroom too cold)
out of sch:Duh.. orchard! Crecentians pratically own the place!

fave canteen stall?
hmmm.... the last drink stall and the malay stall. Last time sold delicious roti prata.... ah my mouth watering now.... so cheap somemore...then there's the western and the vegetarian stall.... yummm

crescent-wise, what are you proud of?
Basically EVERYTHING!!!! I miss crescent so sooo much. The teachers, you can never get more careing teachers then the ones in crescent! The sch spirit, crez awards even the mass runs!! ...Those were the days, i would never forget. Also the wonderful people i got to noe there . when pple ask which sec sch i'm frm, i would proudly say"CRESCENT"